I'm damn so excited because well I really thought I was just going to graduate and get some stupid desk job in on oil factory and when oil finishes I'd have saved enough to publish one novel and well croak and die and then they started talking about how God has all this big plans for me and how I'm not supposed to live like any normal person. For two seconds of my life I actually took serious the idea of marrying some rich guy and writing children stories till I die but then again that was not an option considering I really don't know how to write children stories. Let's just say that's I've never really known what I would do after I leave school. I'm pretty lazy when it comes to thinking about these things but at some point in my life I panicked. Most people I knew were so sure and some of them had already started moving in that path but then again I'm too lazy to think about such things. I learnt tennis and badminton and once wondered if I should take it serious and be like the Serena Williams of our generation but i figured in between my school work, choir practice and my two novels which I've started writing there really was no time to focus so well on my tennis career so i dropped it and don't think i haven't considered doing full time writing but I've seen how that worked out for people so i kinda put it out of my mind and besides I'm too lazy. Ive given up on writing my novel twice already . Its been almost two years since i wrote the first chapter but in my defense I've had to change the story line more than once. Once i got back home ,my mum started complaining of how my grades in chemistry were dropping and how it was because of all the films I used to watch. She just could not understand. So one day I'm reading this novel and it clicks. This is what I want to do with my future. I'm too lazy to write a novel but I'd finish the one I'm writing. After that I want to write only reviews for books and movies and articles and maybe a couple of short stories. I've kinda thought of trying the whole P4CM stuff but I really just enjoy the writing. Reciting is too much stress but I'm learning. Who knows I might just do it. I've always had a couple of silly dreams like going to a ball in London by the time I'm 23 and skydiving and ocean diving before I die ( got that from a silly Indian film. Still I want to do it). Now that I think of it maybe along the way I could be a critic for articles and stuff but then again I'm just writing this I need to ask God first what he wants and if this is not what he wants then fine because that means he has bigger plans for me.